"My heart says follow t'rough.
But I know, now, that I'm way down on your line,
But the waitin' feel is fine"

- Wait in Vain (Marley)


What is wrong in being serious about a relationship? What is wrong to live in the total belief that you are in love? What is wrong in putting everything you have, risking all you have, to get something that might never be yours?

I plunged into this relationship most happily. I was bloody thrilled. I knew nothing about her, and now, after many months of knowing her, most probably I still know nothing about her. But, I had my expectations and hopes of how she should be. No point denying it! However much we try to come into a relationship with an open mind, a clean slate; the bottom line is expectations are always there!
But three months later, everything is perfect! Life is a blast with her around. Roaming around the city, catching random buses to far-away, unpronouncable places (ask any non-Tam to pronounce Vadapalani), watching plays together, walking ridiculous distances; it all seemed just right!

Do I love her? Well, I have been warned by close friends to be careful when using that word. I have also been told not to get too serious into a relationship, for it might just crumble, leaving you nothing but a shattered wreck. But, what could go wrong here? Isn't this what love is? This state of bliss! This state where everything is just so much fun, that amazing blanket of security that nothing can go wrong! Isn't that what she felt too? Didn't she feel the same way as me about this whole thing?

I did tell her. Told her pretty much everything! How I felt, what I thought... But, she said she doesn't! What? She doesn't feel the same way as me? She doesn't want to take it as seriously as me? How can this be? Where did I go wrong? Something I said... or must be something I did... What?
Well, slowly it does sink in, doesn't it? Like all those things that you never thought would come true.... But, it's still fun! It is still a wonderful feeling. And so what if she doesn't feel the same way? I think I will just have to wait, won't I? But who cares!

Yes! The waiting feelin's fine!!!!